I’ve had this site for over a year now and in that time I have posted dozens of pics and a few blogs to which I am sure very few people have reaad. I think I have written so little because I have been afraid to divulge too much of myself to any potential audience that I may be aware of. But seeing that in all likelyhood no one is reading these posts anyways, then fuck sensoring myself cause all it means is that I don’t share nearly enough of my true thoughts and feelings…..at least this way I’m putting them out there!!

So I have been back in the rockies for a month now and although I am enjoying the job and the new people I have met, I have come to realize that I don’t have the passion for the mountains that I once did. Somewhere in the last two years of living in Toronto, I fell in love with the city again. As much as people confound me, I do love the culture and vibrancy and constant artisitc stimulation that comes with being in a city.

I drove out here and on the way had a chance to spend a week in Seattle and Vancouver and spent countless hours on foot exploring as much of noth cities as I could. The new sights and sounds and faces are such a wonderful intellectual and artistic stimulant that it makes me crave more.

One of the reasons why I wanted to spend the summer out here was to be in a place for a few months where I could take everything I have lived in the past few years and process it and translate it into something creative….namely my writing…..and yet all I want is more of that stimulation; the well has not yet been filled so to speak! Perhaps it never will.

The only way I am going to make better use of this site that Irwin spent so many hours building for me is to be a little more fearless and stop giving a shit about what people may think if they happen to stumble upon it.

More honesty to come…..

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